Aug 18,2005 & Rai

Quite often I think about this day. Because this is the day when Tristan is born and this is the same day .. when I left the house to Hospital and I am getting ready , making Rai ready and worrying about his things and his food and all the stuff. He was the one and only .... Crown Prince , Exact word.
Within three or four hours Tristan was born and I realized that mine and Ajay's decision to have another baby has changed Rai's life completely.I really wanted the baby for Rai to have someone to be with if something happens to me. But the new baby will share our love to. I wanted the baby to have maternity leave, time to spend with Rai, but was all gone taking care of baby.
Before Tristan Rai was the only one to enjoy our unshared love. That time was always fun. The time we had before Tristan was born was the best Rai and mommy time. I had so much fun with him. And most of it was intentionally coz I knew that once the new baby will be here things will change. But never thought that a kid who was a baby few hours ago will be a big brother and wont be a baby anymore.
Sometimes I feel like we dethroned Rai with Tristan's birth. I know with age difference they both have, it is like having a God given best friend and I always try to make things that way. I feel most of the sibling relationship depends on the parents.I am working. Nobody is perfect, neither me, but I am trying.
I try to tell Rai that I know you are still a kid but becoz Tristan is smaller than him that's why he got a lot of extra responsibilities.
The other day when both brothers were at Early years and Tristan took couple of his toys with him, I forgot to check if he got them when I picked both brothers. Rai told me that he got the toys and put them in his pocket. I was overwhelmed. My boy is growing up.
I try my best to make them friends not like a father figure and son.
I am so proud of Rai.