Life
Life comes at you so fast .. you can hardly ever had any time to think ..
now when I look back .. there is only things .. I wish it would have never happened .. I life would have been so different.. Its not like I have regrets for what I have .. I love my family - Ajay , both kids I love them they are the source of my energy. They keeps my sane.. sometimes insane..lol.
Only if my Dad was alive... for years I never believed that he is not going to be around me after the mortal death... I always thought he will be always taking care of my like a guarding Angel..
I had a few incidents too from the day he died.. which made me feel he is still around. It stil kills me to talk about him in past tense and saying word die. It has been 13 years....
Looks like it happened just yesteday. The pain is still there. The emptiness is still there but same time I always try to pamper my kids the way my dad did to me.He spoiled me but when I think about all those times .. I can live them again and again. you dont need things to make you happy it is just good memories.. close your eyes and boom you are there (where ever you want yourself to be in your past) Yes we can time travel.. with our soul. We dont have to take our body everywhere..
Soul is enough a lot of times..
I spent my a long span of my life just thinking what if my dad was alive .. my life would have been different .. The day my younger one born .. I learnt a new lesson .. what we can not control we should not whine over that. Life is right in front of us.. just like flowers .. we should know which ones to pick to make our life happy .. in this valley of flowers you would find just decorative .. or very perishable ones .. you just have to pick what suits you.. what makes you be yourself.
Just be yourself.. no apologies no regrets.
Then I realized life never gives to second chances but your loved ones do and if we look around we always do that.
I always keep my arms and heart open for Ajay.. Rai and Tristan..
For both my kids I would always try to make sure they grow up as originals .. I dont want Rai to think - Oh I am the older one I will decide all and do all.. Or Tristan to be Rai jr. Both would be who they are.
Rai would be able to enjoy his childhood but same time just coz tristan is second born I would try my best not to make him baby of the house whole life. He will grow up the way he should be.
Making them smile is my biggest accomplishment in a day .. every day...
I try to keep myself happy and healthy so that I can take care of my loved ones...
Sometimes I think me and Aj .. we both walk so close in life .. step by step walk together that when ever either of us need each other we don not have to look back coz before we know we need our better half we have 'em.
If I have to write on relationships I can keep on doing that for days non stop ... I will take a break now ...
But my next topics would be Relationship ... then I want to write about Rai, Tristan and it would be ongoing. I want them to know what their mom thinks.. about them about life.
There are a few things I strongly believe - Honesty, Love, Faith, Trust & Truth.
If you have these you are that being whom God has created as Human Being.
now when I look back .. there is only things .. I wish it would have never happened .. I life would have been so different.. Its not like I have regrets for what I have .. I love my family - Ajay , both kids I love them they are the source of my energy. They keeps my sane.. sometimes insane..lol.
Only if my Dad was alive... for years I never believed that he is not going to be around me after the mortal death... I always thought he will be always taking care of my like a guarding Angel..
I had a few incidents too from the day he died.. which made me feel he is still around. It stil kills me to talk about him in past tense and saying word die. It has been 13 years....
Looks like it happened just yesteday. The pain is still there. The emptiness is still there but same time I always try to pamper my kids the way my dad did to me.He spoiled me but when I think about all those times .. I can live them again and again. you dont need things to make you happy it is just good memories.. close your eyes and boom you are there (where ever you want yourself to be in your past) Yes we can time travel.. with our soul. We dont have to take our body everywhere..
Soul is enough a lot of times..
I spent my a long span of my life just thinking what if my dad was alive .. my life would have been different .. The day my younger one born .. I learnt a new lesson .. what we can not control we should not whine over that. Life is right in front of us.. just like flowers .. we should know which ones to pick to make our life happy .. in this valley of flowers you would find just decorative .. or very perishable ones .. you just have to pick what suits you.. what makes you be yourself.
Just be yourself.. no apologies no regrets.
Then I realized life never gives to second chances but your loved ones do and if we look around we always do that.
I always keep my arms and heart open for Ajay.. Rai and Tristan..
For both my kids I would always try to make sure they grow up as originals .. I dont want Rai to think - Oh I am the older one I will decide all and do all.. Or Tristan to be Rai jr. Both would be who they are.
Rai would be able to enjoy his childhood but same time just coz tristan is second born I would try my best not to make him baby of the house whole life. He will grow up the way he should be.
Making them smile is my biggest accomplishment in a day .. every day...
I try to keep myself happy and healthy so that I can take care of my loved ones...
Sometimes I think me and Aj .. we both walk so close in life .. step by step walk together that when ever either of us need each other we don not have to look back coz before we know we need our better half we have 'em.
If I have to write on relationships I can keep on doing that for days non stop ... I will take a break now ...
But my next topics would be Relationship ... then I want to write about Rai, Tristan and it would be ongoing. I want them to know what their mom thinks.. about them about life.
There are a few things I strongly believe - Honesty, Love, Faith, Trust & Truth.
If you have these you are that being whom God has created as Human Being.