Striving for Best

I don't care about being better than you. I'm trying to be better than me................. Yes, absolutely. This is exactly I am doing. When I was little in school and university, I did compete and won but started enjoying when I was able to do better than how I was last time.i still remember everything so loud and clear. My memory is literally so photographic that I can see everything from past like a movie. That's good, that's scary... Is it s blessing or a curse. I always heard from my mom," her brain is so sharp, she is just like a computer ,tell her once and she never forgets" I used to wonder. Really? Now I know what my mom was talking about. I can store each detail in my memory just the way it is originally without any corruption in the files. I have stored so many thoughts, memories just like that. But scary thought:- the computer hard drives crash.Would that happen to me too. Can everyone remember everything ? People around me, I have seen hem remembering the things on,y in their own benefit. They can remember the parts. Only those parts where they were right. They have selective amnesia. Why didn't god give me that? Why does He wanted me to remember everything as it is. Dear God, you should have made it clear that either me with bad memory and no brains or people around me respectful and loving. You should have made my partner at least a man with emotions. What's with one person all emotional and other .... Why... But you know... I am still working hard. Working on myself, to be a better person. And I know I am a survivor and I will emerge as the best. Survivors survive but do they stay the same person as they ever were. Do all the survivors have to hear that they have changed.