decisions

You should stay home

But I want to go to university

No 

since dad is gone we should all stay close to home

You were going to work in Mama's college coz your masters is done. But I'd didn't say anything

Why

Why didn't I ? ( I came to know decades later)

Who was she to decide my future?

My mom?

No that was my dead sister. Making decisions

Calling shots. 

Why??

Only my dad died. I wasn't an orphan. 

May be I was

Only I didn't know then

1995