Rai and Jora/Tristan

So Rai's regular school has started today and Jora's Pre school too. As I assumed Jora didn't like staying away from me. When I dropped Rai at his school and then took Tristan to early years centre ... I had kinda mixed feelings.Then at 9:30 his class started. Today was the first day when both the kids weren't with me and I was sitting on the sofa in the centre and for first couple of minutes I was relaxed and then suddenly I realized ... I have nothing to do. All my work and my choices start from both of them and end at them too. I tried to read, surf net... nothing keep my thoughts straight. There was this other mom and she was feeling same way. Mom's they are all the same.
Today I met Rai's first Girlfriend/ best friend's mom. Shaylyn. I guess I have spelled it right. She got another baby sister. Very cute.
Rai used to spend all his time with her.
Ajay watched Chris Rock movie this weekend. He liked it. I never asked him to watch Premonition ... I don't know why.
Even talking about it kinda freaks me out.
From today ... my routine has started.. Getting up at 6:30 am .. what time I will hit the bed.. I don't know.



Tristan is sitting in my lap and singing this song " Gurdwaaaarrrraaa... saaahib ... nananana... tunanana ..."